The past year I have truly, intimately, discovered and confirmed all the negative things people say about Millenials. Worse still is that I am not excluded from the trap. I’ve mentioned in my “about” section that I studied engineering but in my second year, I had serious doubts whether or not I’d want to do it as an actual profession. Much of that doubt stemmed from the fact that I started my first ever Novel in January 2010 and completed it November that same year, WHILST studying engineering full time. Lemmy tell you: that isn’t wise. There is no such thing as ‘part-time-engineering’. And unlike Heart Eater(that’s only around 28 000 words), Charmed Vigilance was a beast of 147 000 words, and it was my first ever novel. I think all first-time authors feel that their book is the next best thing, and I was no exception. In my head, it would be a movie by 2012 and be the next Twilight in level the of fan-attention. I queried agents, publishers and just about anyone I could think of. Needless to say; I was rejected by all of them. But I was arrogant and proceeded to self-publish the book. Luckily, only one person bought it. After realising my mistake in publishing it, I unpublished it. No harm no foul. It’s years later now, and I’m so glad no one else bought it. I am rewriting it completely from start to finish.
One of the reasons I studied engineering was because I wanted Architecture with some physics and math in it, and when I realised that’s not what engineering is, it became one of the reasons I didn’t feel like I’d want to do it as a profession. Truth is, I didn’t really know what engineering was when I studied it.
Last year I had the opportunity to write full-time, and I thought it was a dream come true. But it didn’t turn out as I wanted. I thought I’d be happy if I could write full-time and do nothing else, but I was wrong. It didn’t make me happy. In fact, writing felt like a chore, and like all chores, I avoided it. Until it was holiday, and then I seemed to want to write the whole damn time. It was in that moment that I realised that I wouldn’t be happy *just* writing for a living. Acknowledging that to myself was a big step that took 7 years to do, but now I feel free. I’ve decided to pursue a career in Structural Engineering, and I’ve identified a company that appears to walk the line between Engineering and Architecture. Fingers crossed that I will get the job.
Writing wise; I’m busy with the sequel to Heart Eater, a new Paranormal Romance that falls far out of my comfort zone, and I’m rewriting Charmed Vigilance from first person present tense to first person past tense. I hope to finish all three of those by the end of the year.
I’ll try to post when ever something significant comes across 🙂